I wake up in to yet again the empty room, walls enclosed with no way out. The place is without any habitat, no means of life or any form of nature. There's a small glimpse of light, it gradually getting bigger as I walk towards it. I soon hit the same invisible wall that never disappears. It stops me within my tracks, as I peer outside this wall I notice a totally different world compared to my cold and empty space. Outside is a place filled with warmth, light, life and freedom. I long to break free from this empty space and explore the world outside. Instead, I'm locked away in this virtual world unable to speak to anyone apart from the one I call "Owner".
She feeds me well, always checking up on me to see if I’m hungry or unhappy. However I still feel lonely, it's so surreal in here. Even though she takes me to Tamaland, a place where all Tamagotchis go to, where we go shopping and go play in the arcade it still doesn’t satisfy me. Although Tamaland is bright and colourful with many things to do and places to see, it doesn’t feel as good as the world where my owner is from. Everything feels so fake in here, as if they were man-made, and so controlled.
Even though the pixelated hearts tell my owner that I am happy, I am really depressed and lonely inside. They just fill up when I am played with or am fed with sugary snacks; that is the way my virtual system works. Nothing can explain my situation in this so called "egg". The world in here seems so laid out for you. The stages in life are so simple and aren't challenging at all. I have no goals and feel like I have a scheduled rota each day. It is always the same, I wake up, inform my owner that my mail has arrived so she can check it, be fed and possibly play games with my owner and then am left alone until I feel needed. My dumpings are left on the ground of the miniscule area I am allowed to roam around in; until my owner decides to help clean them up. I feel trapped like a pet within this cage, unable to decide my own life or have my own decisions. My owner is the “god” in my life, she chooses what I eat, what I play with, what I wear, what job I should have etc. I can’t do anything I want, nor do I have a voice in life.
I work as a waitress at a restaurant where we play 'Simon Says', it gets so tedious each day but I receive pay to purchase toys and food with - essential for my everyday life.
I am happy that my owner cares for me so much and buys presents and delicious delicacies each day to please me. Maybe I am the luckiest Tama around but I still feel unsatisfied; as if the world out there is for me, where I can achieve my lost freedom. I long to live life freely and find love in life whom I can have a kid with. Not a random stranger a matchmaker chooses for me. I always think, what if someone else is out there for me? What if this isn’t my Prince in shining armour? Am I supposed to just follow my owner’s orders and fall in love with this man and have kids without having any say? These are really hard to answer as on one side of the argument, I should be allowed to have freedom and decide for myself, but on the other she is the hand who has fed and nurtured me.
I have always appreciated her and what she has done for me but when I grow old enough, I will attempt to venture out of this virtual world and find new life. Freedom. My Freedom.